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Post by Ryan Davis on Dec 30, 2007 19:14:01 GMT -5
"Oh, lucky guy." He said wondering who it was porbably some guy Xanten's age and was an artist. when asked if he himself liked anyone Ryan didn't say yes I like you no instead thinking Xanten had no intrest in him other than a friend "No not really just enjoying single life for awhile I guess." RYAN YOU GREAT BIG FAT LAIR that little voice in his head screamed
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Post by Xanten Ericcson on Dec 30, 2007 19:22:24 GMT -5
"Yea." He said hoping that it would tip Ryan off but saw that it didn't. "Oh." Xanten frowned and nodded hearing him he looked at him thinking he was the biggest idiot to think that Ryan had any interest in him. "The guy I really like okay am in love with is sitting next to me infact." Chewing on his bottom lip hoping that would help more then anything.
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Post by Ryan Davis on Dec 30, 2007 19:42:06 GMT -5
"Yeah, maybe when I find someone." He said "Its not bad I like being single in-fact." once again lying Ryan was lying. Why because it was a stupid idea Xanten was too young for him. "Oh, sits next to you in class?" He was being stupid now ignoring the fact the arrows all pointed to him. Finally relaizing what Xanten met his face flashed during his attention to his piano. "mmm, since you were six I've been playing gutair since I was seven."
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Post by Xanten Ericcson on Dec 30, 2007 19:50:32 GMT -5
"I hope you do you deserve someone nice." He said hearing that it ripped his heart to shreds. God he was so stupid he was too young for Ryan. Shutting his eyes when that was said he felt like he was going to burst into tears. "No is sitting right next to me at this moment." Keeping his head down he listened to him talking about when he started himself. "My grandpa started me on it, he loved playing the violin."
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Post by Ryan Davis on Dec 30, 2007 19:58:47 GMT -5
"Your grandpa,sounds like he knew alot." Ryan said biting his lip, hearing the next thing that came out of his mouth he started playing Kissing You again just take the edge off the fact it took everything he had not to say what he really wanted to say. "Xanten, do you wanna hang out sometime maybe grab a bite to eat or maybe see a movie. not date just hang out." He said okay so Ryan wanted it to be a date but for all he knew Xanten wasn't bi or gay.
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Post by Xanten Ericcson on Dec 30, 2007 20:06:13 GMT -5
"Yes he did." He said he listened to what Ryan had started to play. That really broke his heart the next thing that had been said. Nodding that he did he leaned over kissing Ryan on the lips but moved to his feet crouching down in the corner. "God I'm so stupid to actually think that an older guy would ever want a lowly kid to love." Lowering his head he stayed where he was shaking.
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Post by Ryan Davis on Dec 30, 2007 20:47:03 GMT -5
Ryan didn't move he didn't know what to say after that, swallowing hard. Didn't know how to respond to that, "Xanten, I.....I...do like you, look wow." He said feeling sorry for him. "Why I'm I talking."
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Post by Xanten Ericcson on Dec 30, 2007 20:53:46 GMT -5
He looked down at the floor still he clinched his eyes shut, tears fell down his cheek. "I'm sorry I shouldn't be saying these things to you, you don't need to or would want to hear the stupid ramblings of an orphan kid."
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Post by Ryan Davis on Dec 30, 2007 21:05:01 GMT -5
Ryan didn't say a word just kneed down in-front of him bringing Xanten's face gently up to his wiping his tears with his thumb, "Don't cry baby, don't cry." He said leaning his forehead against Xanten's kissing his lips gently before pulling away. "You can ramble all you want, I like hearing you ramble." he kissed him again
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Post by Xanten Ericcson on Dec 30, 2007 21:21:48 GMT -5
He sniffled and opened his eyes when his head was lifted, putting his hands on Ryan's. Feeling like he wanted to die and get it over with. With Ryan's forehead against his he could feel his bottom lip trembling, being kissed he closed his eyes when it ended. "Why I'm just some little no body." Kissing him he burrowed into his body shaking.
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Post by Ryan Davis on Dec 30, 2007 21:45:28 GMT -5
"Because your specail and you deserve someone to care about you." He said putting his arms around Xanten. Ryan thinking this whole mess could have been avoid if he just told him the truth.
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Post by Xanten Ericcson on Dec 30, 2007 21:54:46 GMT -5
"I'm not special I'm just some stupid little nobody." He said burrowing even more into his arms. Xanten felt lost and like an idiot praying to god this wasn't a joke or a dream.
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Post by Ryan Davis on Dec 30, 2007 22:11:14 GMT -5
"To me you are." He said rubbing his back gently "I'm sorry I just didn't come out and say it, I just didn't know if you felt the same."
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Post by Xanten Ericcson on Dec 30, 2007 22:14:32 GMT -5
"I don't feel like I am." He kept his face hidden in Ryan's neck softly crying. Xanten was burrowed into his arms and body, "You deserve someone your own age not some child." He loved Ryan very much and honestly wondered why him. "Why me?"
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Post by Ryan Davis on Dec 30, 2007 22:40:48 GMT -5
"You wanna know?, because when I'm around you Xanten you don't make me feel like I'm one of five other people you make me feel like I'm just me and that's good enough." He said wow that was a mouth full but he meant it.
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Post by Xanten Ericcson on Dec 30, 2007 23:00:17 GMT -5
"Yes." He listened to him sniffling he looked up at him with very blood shot eyes. Snuggling up to him he knew that he looked like a mess and like a cry baby. "Thank you." Whispering softly to him.
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